alright. so. i was reading morgans comment while i was looking at old notes, pictures and listening to "my december" and damn i started to cry. it was really sad, because shes right, and i've done the same thing. so im totally in the middle of writing her a sweet letter and i have to do it a little at a time cause its hard to handle.

i just sent tara caitie and morgan a letter but that was before i read this comment. its pretty sad. no. its really sad.

so morgan i love so *fucking much.... dont forget.

hey....

so like i go to 2° and theres like this huge contest if you design a snowboard,,,, and i was like no way. how effing sweet. so i got this. lol not really but mines pretty cool.... its like black and you know what whgen im done i'll just put the pic on here. so yeahhhhhhhhh school pretty much sucks without my phone. i accually have to pay attention! can you believe it. anyway, lots of jokes today.  likejohnny convinced kim that if you break a calculator a rainbow will come out and they broke one when she wasnt looking and she was totally like "WHERE DID IT GO?!" (seriously.) and they said it was really pretty but it was really fast, and she missed it. then they told her that if you put a gold fish in a cup with water and put it in the freezer for two days and then let it sit out... it still lives, that the freezing accually makes it more healthy. and shes like "im gunna do that when i get home" this was all during math, she even asked the teacher if it was true, and to go along with it, he said yes. it was soooooooooo funny. the sad thing is. that really happened, and she was so serious. then at lunch jordan threw his cup of red poweraid on adam and he flipped out.

oh what an exciting day.

well im going.

<3 always ellybelle

Currently Listening All The Stars And Boulevards By Augustana Boston see related

My life = over.

My happiness = none.

My mental stability = less then ever.

My parents dont even care.

[and no, im not just saying that for attention.]

(they really dont.)

im pretty much grounded for the rest of my life.

and i dont get to see Tim this weekend.

my cell = gone

probably for good.

time spent in room: all day everyday after and before school.

time spent with friends outside of school = none.

time spent with family = dinner. maybe a few min. during the day.

time spent on the phone = none.

time spent doing homework = as soon as i get home to whenever im done with it. (with or without dinner)

time spent as a normal kid in high school = ended today.

time spent as a grounded no-life loser = starting today till mm i dont know maybe till i move out of this fucking state.

time spent being depressed and knowing that my life would suck = since my fucking parental figure told me i was moving to this fucking ghost town.

time spent hating the parental units = since i got here.

time spent writing this depressing note = as long as i possibly can.

time spent crying tonight = arounnd three hours,

time spent trying to smile = none.

time spent watching the movie 13 and wishing i was one of the girls on there who didnt have a care in the world = how ever long that movie is.

time spent wondering if i should go outside and drink = still pondering the idea.

time spent thinking im just plain stupid like my dad said = since i  got introuble which was about three hours ago.

time spent wondering why i even try to please my parents = for my whole life.

time spent wondering what im going to do to get my self out of this or try to make it better = sice i got my self introuble.

time spent telling you why i got introuble in the first place = none so dont ask.

time you'll spend trying to get me to tell you even though i wont = a while... wasted.

time i'll think about telling you after you've begged and begged = still none.

time i should go = now.

love always;

grounded for Life, aka elly aka i suck at life. (no need to tell me. i already know.)

Currently Listening Everything in Transit By Jack's Mannequin the mixed tape see related

shes a... Rock Star!

Hey guys! guess what! im going to state! oh yes! im soooo excited i get to miss school on friday cause we leave at 5:30 in the morning! oh boy... and this sweet kid i met Tim is gunna be there too, so we get to hang out. Its pretty remarkable how im going to STATE! thats almost like zones for you morgan! oh boy its so awesome!

alright i better go me rhian dan and rita are all going out tonight

love yah!

-elly

Hey! whoa i haven't had one of these in a while... i almost forgot how to do stuff... but then i remembered.

so this year has definitely been interesting... as I'm missing all you guys in Ohio.. I'm having an awesome time here... schools good... the team is good. I'm finally doing good in swimming... Morgan you'd be proud... i swim a 28 in my 50 free, almost got a 27, its pretty sweet. um I've pretty much just been hanging out with morgan, leah, kody, tyler, colten, rhian, dan, kyle, and adam. me Leah kody and Tyler go to the movie most the time, and have random movie nights after football games on fridays. its pretty fun. Halloween is gunna be fun we're all hangin out then. and Leah me and koda are going to rocky point in January so that should be fun!

well, I'll try to keep in touch...

 ell